Friday, July 8, 2011

My feet turned cold.

Lately, I've been having an issue. It's called cold feet. I don't know what it is. I've been through all of this stuff except the query part. I should be able to feel confident about my stuff. I do, but I'm scared to send my stuff to my CPs. I know when they read this I'm going to get a talking to, but I don't know why I'm feeling this way.

Last year, I would've given my story to anyone. I was sending stuff to my CPs at an annoying rate. Now, I'm clamming up. I feel like it has to be perfect, and I know it's not, and that's what CPs are for, to help.
Then why am I getting so jittery. I'm trying to get through the first round of revisions of my latest MS and I get a fear ball in my tummy with the thought of sending my stuff to my lovely gals. Why am I so afraid? I know they are to help and they support me to no end. It's awesome. They are awesome. Yes, I will tell you right now, they are the best. You can argue, but I will tell you, they are the best in the world. Yes, I said world.

I should get over this, and I know I will, but this is one of the strangest feelings I've had on this journey.

Anyone else have this happen to them?

I did make great progress in my converting past to present tense on my MS. Tedious, but it should make it much better. I hope.

Since I'm working hardcore on revisions, my posts may be random next week.

Have a wonderful weekend!! 

16 comments:

  1. I think your problem might be that you are really proud of your work and you're scared of it being put down. This has happened to me. It's normal! :o)

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  2. I agree with Jessica; I get cold feet myself and I feel it stems from fear. The reality is, everything we include in our manuscripts is there for a reason. We made the decision to include it because it served a purpose for us as writers. Realistically, CPs and betas will have different opinions - of course, they are approaching the task with the goal of making it a better piece, but it's still unnerving to think of their reaction to something so close to us.

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  3. I was nervous the first time, but my critique partners were so awesome, I'm not worried about it. What's the worse that can happen?

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  4. I've decided I'm a writer who is afraid of writing. More accurately, I'm afraid of all the mistakes I know I am going to make.

    Sometimes, after revising and cutting, you want a little breather from the helpful criticism that makes your MS better. I think this is healthy.

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  5. Christine, it's all part of the writing process. You must trust in yourself and believe in your story. You really need some duct tape for your doubt/fear monster. Mine rears its obnoxious head periodically and I just tell it to shove it. It's rather freeing.

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  6. I've felt that ball of fear in the pit of my stomach, too. That feeling of panic when I see an email pop up in my box from a beta reader who's had my manuscript. You hope for compliments, and you want to hear about things you should fix, but you're also terrified they are delivering the bad news that your story is completely unfixable.

    And yet that's never happened to me, and I'll bet it hasn't happened to you, either! It doesn't stop me from feeling that panic every single time, though.

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  7. Totally understandable! It's scary to get critiqued. Best remedy is to just put it out there. And remind yourself that you can revise.

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  8. This hasn't happened to me, but I just got a CP a few days ago, so I haven't had much experience. Maybe the fear means your extremely attached to your story. Good luck warming up your feet! ;)

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  9. Hi,

    Read Roni Loren's blog, it might lessen the angst. ;)

    best
    F

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  10. Interesting! Well, I always have SOME trepidation, especially when showing something new. Maybe you could show it to ONE...and then that wouldn't be so bad? You could fix it up for the rest of your CPs and your self-confidence would be boosted. :)

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  11. I'm always afraid to share my writing but it's a necessary step in the process. Just remember that you're doing it to better yourself and you'll be fine. Good luck!

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  12. I think most, if not all writers can relate to this feeling. We pour so much of ourselves into our writing, and naturally we're afraid of rejection.

    I just found a new beta reader, and she is tough stuff, but I'm trying to put it into perspective. These are things I'd want to know about my manuscript before sending it out to agents. Remember, though: some of your CPs' suggestions are just that -- suggestions. You don't have to change every single thing.

    Good luck! :)

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  13. I would tell you to get into a critique group. I've been in mine for almost 3 years now and we trust each other implicitly. We're wonderful friends and can tell each other anything and can always rely on an honest, yet fabulous critique. That's my advice. Find close friends who not only critique you, but who you critique too! ;)

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  14. Never be afraid to share with CPs because chances are they feel the same way about their own works. Good luck on the revisions!

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  15. We all feel it. Remember you aren't alone.

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  16. ...wait until the day comes when you're asked to read a chapter of your work in front of a crowd of fifty potential buyers at the local book store.

    Nausea sets in, spurring a gaseous response from an intestinal system twisted and wrung out like a damp beach towel. Yeah...that bad.

    Use those crit partners are there to prepare you for what's coming...something which is good for sales, bad for nerves ;)

    Good luck, Christine, and happy weekend!

    EL

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