Friday, August 22, 2014

Yep, I'm still here.

Wow! It's been a while. I'm still here though. I'm still writing and putting my work out there. There isn't anything really exciting going on so I haven't posted. I could talk about the craft, which I will try to do. I know I've said this before, but then life takes over and my writing takes over blogging.

I did take a break over the summer. Not by choice, though. Kids schedules were more demanding now than ever. My alone time was extremely limited. I was always anticipating one monster or the other needing something. "Mom!" was a common word in my house and there were times I'd rather be in a padded room.

I wanted to write and be into it like I was. I searched for that feeling. You know the one where you're super excited even in the tough time of slapping words on paper or even revising. But that feeling wasn't there. I thought it was gone for good. I also limited myself from the world of social media. It was making me feel unaccomplished.

I was burned out, tired of the whole game. I was dealing with emotional junk that was the aftermath of it all. I thought I battled through the demons, when in fact, they were just waiting to strike. In their path, they sucked the life out of me, taking creativity and confidence with it. I had more confidence when I knew nothing a few years back and that's not saying much. I let it all get to me even though I said it didn't. But I put on a smile and said everything was fine. My life itself was, but my writing life was not. A piece was missing . . .lost and confused. That was the writing. It was being held hostage and tortured, making me doubt everything.

All along, I've been fighting them and repressing these dark demons, but I needed a break from all that got me here so I could  clear my head and start over. I stopped sending out queries as well. I wasn't hearing back from any agent and I was tired. My steam faded. Why was I doing this? I do want an agent. I still do. I know that's the path I want to go down. But something kept fluttering along with that reason. I also wanted an agent to prove that I'm worthy. That I can be an equal. That I am a writer. I wanted to be in the club. I wanted to say, yep someone in the biz finds me "good enough." Acceptance.

But is that what makes you accepted and seen as a writer? There are so many other opportunities to prove that. Right? At least, that's what I'm aiming towards now. There are options. An agent isn't the only thing that gains you respect. Excellent writing does. Whether it's published or not. I know and have been told so many stories of the life after signing that piece of paper. Some really fantastic and some total suckage.

I would like to aim for the fantastic side, but that might require a dozen manuscripts before one is good for the market. That's the main reason I get rejections. It's not sellable. But I'm not going to write stuff for the market. We are told to write what we want. Now, it's up to the writing gods to sprinkle a little luck my way.

That feeling has sparked back inside me. I have revisions to finish on a manuscript that I want to query. Yep, I said query. This will be the third one that I will send to trenches. I have to have hope or the demons will win. I can't let them. I'm better than that. Over the summer, I grew that thick skin everyone talks about, and so far, the rejection I just received didn't bother me as much. Sure it was bittersweet, but for once, I have hope that the next manuscript could be the one that grabs more attention. Maybe it will be better for the market. If not, I'll swallow it down and chalk it up with strengthening the craft.

I am also eager to work on something new, which I'm pretty excited about.

So, why tell you all this? These moments come and you may feel like you don't belong or are not accepted, don't, you're writing. If you continue, you will grow. It might take time or you might have great luck. I know I say all of this in one form or another, but I'm human. I give in to the dark side now and again because I get tired of the fight. The negatives win. But we only have one life (I do like to think there are other things going on after it, but I have to be realistic here. Let's leave that for my stories), we only get one shot to enjoy it. I see what the demons can do to people. And to me it's not worth giving in.

Although, I wish I had a superpower or was alien. But that's for my stories to tell.

So, how is everyone?

 What are you working on?

Have a great day!!

Monday, May 19, 2014

How I Found The Write Path Blogfest

Today, I'm taking part in How I Found the Write Path Blogfest. A big thanks to Carrie Butler for putting all of this together. Check out the other amazing participants here.

 

 
Dear Past Self,
Hey there! It’s me, you, but in the future. Crazy, right? Anyway, this journey you’re about to embark on is crazy hard. Deep down, I think you know that, but you have to face it and embrace it. There will be a ton of rejection and heartache. Lots of tears and those demons that like to make you feel like you’re not worth much. Yep, they’ll come. When you query, they’ll double, well, triple in size.
Stay strong. I know it’s easy for me to say, but you must. You need to take the support when others offer. It’s okay. It’s doesn’t make you weak. You know the people I’m talking about. They’ll guide you and help you in so many ways. So listen to them.
And don’t compare yourself to anyone. ANYONE. Everyone’s path is different.  It’s true. I know you’ll try and ignore me, but it’s really true. All the feedback you get will be left up to you to determine. That whole follow-your-gut thing. Yep. It’s true. You need to keep writing everyday and taking the opportunities that you know are good for you. Trust me.
When you query, let things slide off. Rejection only makes you stronger. I know that’s something everyone tells you, but it’s true. It still hurts, but you'll learn how to channel the hot pokers that strike your heart. Always be aware that there are options in publishing so keep an open mind. Success is only what you make it. And opinions are just that—opinions. Throw them up and let them fly like petals on the wind. Make sure to keep the ones you cherish close to your heart. You’ll know who means well.
The confidence you have now will fade in and out. It may even get crushed. Don’t let it. Remain strong and believe in yourself. If you don’t believe in yourself, it’ll show. Never EVER think you’re below anyone. Your path is different from the others. That’s all. When you’re at the point where it seems like everyone in the world is published or has an agent but you, you’re still not below anyone. So please, don’t think that.
Patience is also key. Now I know you pretty much have none so figure out how to deal with waiting months and months (possibly never) from agents. It’s how this all works. There are no short cuts. Everything takes time so distract yourself by writing something else. It’ll do you good. Think about it, the more you write the stronger you become.
And the biggy--this is all subjective. Not everyone is going to like your stuff. You don’t like every book you read so not everyone will like yours. All you need to do is keep writing and enjoying the process of creating magic. All those characters in your head need a life on paper; otherwise, they’ll drive you nuts when they talk all at once. No sense in that. You don’t want to look crazy.
So keep going. You’re on the right track. One day things will happen and some people will love your stories. Just believe in yourself and crush the doubting demons. They aren’t kind and only hold you back. You are amazing and you will get there.
Love,
Your Future Self

Christine Danek
Blog: www.christinedanek.blogspot.com
Twitter @christinedanek

"I give permission for my entry to be included in the e-book compilation without royalties and/or separate compensation."

 

 

Thursday, May 15, 2014

Social media--blessing or curse?

Social media. Is it a blessing or a curse? I'm not sure if it's either. Actually, it depends on how you look at it and really how you use it. At one point, my journey towards publication relied on it. I craved it. I looked forward to it--everyday. It was a community for me. I can't say it's entirely bad. I've made a ton of connections and friends to which I'm so so grateful for.  I've learned tons and tons. And have gotten so much support from many folks I've never met. A blessing. Plus, you can find anything you need without leaving your house--research. Bonus.

On the other hand, social media can bring you down. For a few years, I was on it a lot and what I began to realize is social media became more like a cursed object. So much information was thrown at me I didn't know what to process. It awoke some things in me. My depression demons would whisper negative thoughts into my head. It brought me down. Way down. I would compare myself and see tons of things happening to others and nothing was happening in my corner of the world. What was wrong with me? Could I not learn? Or even keep up?  I became numb and distant. I was angry at writing when it should make me happy. I got frustrated and fed up. I pushed myself but what I was writing was forced and not thought through. I wasn't enjoying it. Any of it. I wanted something, badly, and I was so caught up in social media, I couldn't focus on me. It definitely held me back. It created a mindset that spiraled me backwards. Confidence dropped and I felt that I was so below everyone, I'm never going to get there.

So what happened. I stopped. I stopped blogging, I limited my FB time, twitter time and all around email. I stopped checking my email every five seconds for responses from agents. I didn't want that to rule my life. I can't control what they want so I shut it off. It can be a distraction and overwhelming. I wanted to keep up but I kept putting myself below everyone because I wasn't there. Why would I be accepted if I'm just a writer? Bad thoughts from not so nice demons. Once I limited things, the weight on my shoulders started to lift. I stepped back and instead of trying to keep up with everyone else, I'm only trying to please myself. It's okay to say no and it's okay to take your time. It's okay to limit things, and guess what, it's okay shut it off for a while. The whole world doesn't need to know every single thing you do. You're writing. That what counts. You're thinking about how to change a problem child in your story. That counts too. There's nothing to keep up with only with yourself.

So where am I now. Still querying and not trying to think about it too much. I'm also revising my fourth novel and prepping it to query one day. And writing my fifth novel. Keeping busy and keeping me happy. I've decided to take my time with this next manuscript and see where it goes. I write because it helps me escape and one day I would love to share it with others, but I need to think clearly and move forward with out looking back and to the side.

I think in the end, social media is what you make it. I think you have to decide the best way to use it and focus on it. I think for the longest time, I did, but got lost, and now, I'm jumping back on the tracks and moving forward.

Hope everyone is well!

What are you working on?

Have a great day!!

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

Check this out!

Hi everyone!
Just a quick plug from me. Yes, me. Check out this issue of Vine Leaves Literary Journal. I have some free verse poetry in there. Yes, me! Thanks to the everyone at Vine Leaves especially Jessica Bell. This would've never happened without her. ;) Go check out all the wonderful talent.

Thanks and have a great day!!

http://www.vineleavesliteraryjournal.com/issue-10-jan-2014.html

Issue #10 is now live! http://www.vineleavesliteraryjournal.com/issue-10-jan-2014.html

Friday, April 11, 2014

My Writing Process Blog Tour


Hi everyone! It's been a while, but I've been writing lots so one thing has to be limited for me to focus.

Thanks to the lovely Ilene Gregorio (NONE OF THE ABOVE  Balzer
& Bray/ HarperCollins 2015) for tagging me in the My Writing Process Blog Tour! Go check out her site and make sure you check out her debut NONE OF THE ABOVE in 2015. Thanks Ilene. Also, check her out on twitter @IWGregorio.


1)      What am I working on?

I’m currently working on revisions for COURIER my fourth novel. It’s a YA light scifi. I’m really excited about it because in takes place in a city I adore, Munich, Germany. Although, I’m always starting new ideas and tweaking other manuscripts. My brain never stops. For instance, I'm starting to brainstorm a new fantasy novel, but the MC is a little shy.

2)      How does my work differ from the others of its genre?

Oh good question.  I tend to write with a contemporary feel but throw in something that isn’t of this world. Maybe because I wish that’s how real life should be--a little unpredictable and mysterious. I also would love to have a super power, but I have a hard time limiting it to just one.
 
3)      Why do I write what I do?

I’m stuck in the mindset of a seventeen-year-old so I think it was inevitable that I gravitate towards YA. The paranormal and scifi stuff is what I wish would happen in everyday life. Hey, you never know. There are a lot of unsolved mysteries out there. It helps me escape the everyday hum drum.
 
4)      How does my writing process work?

I have to say, I'm always discovering my writing process. I know when I started out, I was a total pantser. I wrote what came to me with no real direction so that led to many, many, many revisions. Now, I like to call myself an organized pantser. I usually start out knowing the beginning, some of the middle and end, and then write those scenes that I visualize in my head.  Lately though, I’ve made sure once that’s done, I go through and get the character arc down and the plot just so I have something to follow. It's not fully detailed just general ideas. Once I start writing the whole thing though, it can change. I like getting to know the character through writing it. This process has its cons but it’s comfortable for me.
Well, that's my crazy process. What's yours? Thanks again to Ilene for tagging me. And now I must tag two more fine writers. So go check them out.

Kim Chance is writer of YA Supernatural/Paranormal fiction and is currently working on her first novel, KEEPER, which she is hoping (and praying!) will one day be on bookshelves everywhere! When she isn't writing, she's busy being a full time mommy to twin girls and a high school English teacher.  You can find her blog at: kimchance.com  Twitter: @_KimChance            

Ashley Zarzaur writes Harry Potter fan fiction, and has delved into that world since early 2003.  When she's not writing, she's involved in the ever impressive MMORPG World of Warcraft, playing with her two nephews and one niece, and enjoys reading, watching "The Big Bang Theory", and laying around in pajamas to do absolutely nothing! Her blog: http://ashleyfanfic.livejournal.com/
Twitter: @ashleyfanfic
 
Have a great day!!
 

 

Monday, March 17, 2014

Snack Time


I'm definitely a snacker when I write. I find it interesting what writers snack on while producing magic. What fuels the fire so to speak. Of course, we should be thinking healthy, but sometimes that doesn't happen.

For me, I tend to go to the granola bar or Cheez-its. Every so often, grapes get involved or Leibniz mini's sneak in. I do try to stay away from chocolate. Let's face it, beach body 2014 isn't going to look too good with a bag of Hershey kisses around the middle. I save the hard chocolatey stuff for the frowny face times.

I have discovered this awesome recipe for a granola banana cookie that I've been making. My kids love them too. http://www.recipebyphoto.com/2-ingredient-cookies/
They are ridiculously easy to make and taste really good. I add chocolate chips. It's the chocoholic in me. I get chocolate and some healthy stuff while snacking. Score.

Whatever you pick it's helps the juices flow, doesn't it? I don't know what it is. Or Maybe I'm a loner in this department. Either way, we all have different ways to produce our pride and joys.

If you snack while writing, what is your go to food?

Have a great day!!

Wednesday, March 5, 2014

Ban the email

You're querying. Fantastic. Good for you. Best of luck. Your baby is polished and your query is sparkling. You have a list of agents and you carefully followed the submission guidelines. So now what?

This is the part where you must learn patience. As you know, I'm not. But I've learned to become more tolerant. I let things roll more often than I used to. Querying is that moment that defines where your path might go. It puts you on the edge of your seat and your insides squirm. After you hit send, the build up to the moment . . . goes and now you must wait.

I know, not easy. As much as we don't like to admit it, we've hit the refresh button shortly after sending even though you know you're not getting a response any time soon. Most agents takes from two weeks to four months, some even longer. I know most of my email is advertisements. So why do we do it? Why torture ourselves? Why is that urge to continually hit the refresh button on our email so tempting and addicting? A society of instant gratification? Possibly. The want to know whether you make the cut? Sure. To some it's a test of whether you pass. But is it? Writing is highly subjective. That's the part that's hard to swallow. Not only do you have to have the strength of a great writer, personal taste and what sells comes into play. It may not be the right time. And sometimes being the best at your craft gets pushed aside just for a money maker. The factors of all this can make your head spin and create emotions you never knew you had. But it's the nature of the beast. You have to accept this will happen and some will get there quicker than others. Right now, I think I'm on the ten year plan, but even that can change. Nothing is set in stone, and even after you get that agent, there's no guarantee.

So send those queries but do something else while you wait. Go outside (if it's not bitter cold like it is here), write another book, make new friends, find other writers. Go out and live. Don't let the email be your crutch.

Lessons to learn and one I must follow. I've been shutting off email and all other social media when I write, and even though the urge is there, I plug forward and do my best to do something else.

Have a great day!!