Wednesday, May 2, 2012

Help me Obi-Wan Kenobi, you're my only hope. Insecure Writer's Support Group


You know the line. Right now, I think Obi-Wan is the only one who can help me with that whole force thing. He did help me with my new idea this week so I can't complain too much.

Hope is something we rely on. I hope. Okay, I hope a lot. I hope for world peace and for all illnesses to disappear. I also hope for little things like a partial request.

Does hope disappoint?
I guess it does, but maybe I don't give it a chance or maybe I sometimes rely on it, which only lets me down.

What is hope?
According the Merriam Webster Dictionary.com -- to cherish a desire with anticipation.
Basically, you can hope for anything, doesn't mean it will happen.

Is it wrong to hope?
No, but like I said before, I'm trying not to rely on it. Same goes for beliefs, lately they have given me lots of disappointments.

I guess my problem this week is I know the MS I'm querying will not get me there. I feel it. So why am I putting myself through the torture? For experience? Maybe. To say I tried it. I really believed in this story, but that hope and belief are fading. I'm realizing unless luck decides to join in, this story is just another story that's uninteresting.

So, what do you do?
In my case, I'm trying to go with the flow. I'm trying to focus on my new stuff and my other completed MS (and the six other ideas invading my head). Thanks to the force of Obi-Wan, my new idea is taking over, which feels great.

I will still query this one, because, for some reason, there is a teeny tiny spark of hope that luck may step in. But my belief is that it's not the one. Confusing and conflicted, I know. Welcome to my world. But aren't writers complex folks?

What are you hoping for?

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